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So I am totally losing the blogging motivation! I'm not sure if I just need to have a blog makeover (actually that would be a definite yes, this green is getting very old) or what it is, but I have had no idea what to post about lately. I don't even feel motivated to go on and on about how amazing our sweet little man is! Part of it is just that I feel sad. A few months ago I posted about how a good friend of mine lost her baby full term. Well, just last week another friend of mind went through the same thing. I was at a funeral last week with a small wooden coffin. I can't get the image out of my mind. My heart breaks for my friend and her family as they grieve their sweet son.
When you hear news like this it makes you stop and remember how fragile life is. It makes me want to enjoy every moment I have with my son. It doesn't make me want to blog. It makes me feel guilty for spending too much time on facebook and blogs when I should be playing with my boy! Lately, I have been taking extra time to enjoy little moments with him. Instead of just quickly taking him out of his car-seat and on to the next errand I will stop in the back-seat of the car and just chill with him for a bit. I love it! I think I have become better at not running around and being crazy busy since becoming a mom. Which may sound strange. Although my life feels just as busy it is a new busy and a much better one. The thought of anything happening to Moses is unthinkable. Since becoming a mother I am so much more sensitive now. I used to be able to watch really dark movies with a story-line that involves kidnapping or someone's child being killed. Now, I can't. Although, it effected me before it is just so much more real now.
Wow, I wasn't planning on posting any of this! Just started typing.....
Anyways, today with the news of a wonderful couple getting a referral, and the news that Rana & Yvan FINALLY have a court date booked after waiting 9 months.... I am feeling very happy! Oh and I am anxiously awaiting for Laura to get her referral. It has to be soon!!! As much as I haven't been into personally blogging lately, I LOVE to follow the families that for many started their journey to adoption long before us. Crazy, hey? My heart still breaks for A & C who have had an entire year pass after their referral and are still not any closer to bringing their son home. I also feel so sad for Alyssia who found out that the birth mom who chose them has changed her mind after her baby boy was born. Adoption is crazy. Some people's journeys are fast and others are long emotional roller-coasters. There is no rhyme or reason. It just is. But I'm pretty sure that all of them at the end would do it all over again!
Okay, I"ll leave you with a few newer photo of Moses. Isn't he looking so handsome?
(Waiting to meet his Great Grandma & Grampa for the first time! We were SO lucky to have them visit us!)
When you hear news like this it makes you stop and remember how fragile life is. It makes me want to enjoy every moment I have with my son. It doesn't make me want to blog. It makes me feel guilty for spending too much time on facebook and blogs when I should be playing with my boy! Lately, I have been taking extra time to enjoy little moments with him. Instead of just quickly taking him out of his car-seat and on to the next errand I will stop in the back-seat of the car and just chill with him for a bit. I love it! I think I have become better at not running around and being crazy busy since becoming a mom. Which may sound strange. Although my life feels just as busy it is a new busy and a much better one. The thought of anything happening to Moses is unthinkable. Since becoming a mother I am so much more sensitive now. I used to be able to watch really dark movies with a story-line that involves kidnapping or someone's child being killed. Now, I can't. Although, it effected me before it is just so much more real now.
Wow, I wasn't planning on posting any of this! Just started typing.....
Anyways, today with the news of a wonderful couple getting a referral, and the news that Rana & Yvan FINALLY have a court date booked after waiting 9 months.... I am feeling very happy! Oh and I am anxiously awaiting for Laura to get her referral. It has to be soon!!! As much as I haven't been into personally blogging lately, I LOVE to follow the families that for many started their journey to adoption long before us. Crazy, hey? My heart still breaks for A & C who have had an entire year pass after their referral and are still not any closer to bringing their son home. I also feel so sad for Alyssia who found out that the birth mom who chose them has changed her mind after her baby boy was born. Adoption is crazy. Some people's journeys are fast and others are long emotional roller-coasters. There is no rhyme or reason. It just is. But I'm pretty sure that all of them at the end would do it all over again!
Okay, I"ll leave you with a few newer photo of Moses. Isn't he looking so handsome?
(Waiting to meet his Great Grandma & Grampa for the first time! We were SO lucky to have them visit us!)
posted by emily at
8:25 PM
18 Comments:
it's about time for a new post! nice to hear from you :)
I am so sorry to hear about your friends' loss...unimaginable.
Thanks for always checking in to see how we were doing and celebrating with us after all this time.
And yes, Moses is so handsome and no one can blame you one bit for not blogging when you have that little dude to hang with.
Emily,
Thanks for your kind thoughts, and thanks for posting some new pics of your gorgeous son. I remember the first pictures your ever posted of him and thinking, "Wow, what an amazingly gorgeous child!" And he just keeps on getting cuter and cuter! I'm sure that in person he's even more amazing. I'm glad you are enjoying him so much spending more time with him than on the computer. But you still find time to leave little encouraging comments on my blog and I really appreciate those. Thanks so much. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Alysia
Oh Gosh, what radgic news - they are in my thoughts.
That little man is getting so big, I can't believe how quickly time flies.
Cheers, L
P.S. So hoping to send you some good news very soon - it is so hard to wait, but I know it will all be worth it in the end - especially seeing Moses beautiful smiling face.
I know you read my blog when I posted something similar. I am also at a loss of what to do, and admit I have also been feeling pretty down lately and the Interweb is not really the place to share a lot of the more personal things. Plus now the weather is better I feel like I need to get away from this computer and outside more. But I don't want to just abandon my blog. I am still not sure... but soon I will need to make a decision.
He is a sweetie! Glad to hear you're taking the time to enjoy M the most you can!
I still like reading about what's up with you guys :)
Good to hear from you.
I hear you on not knowing what to say. I feel like every time I blog it is sad or negative stuff. I need to find something exciting and happy soon.
To lose a child...there are no words.
Moses has grown - handsome little man! Pictures are aways appreciated, even if you don't have anything to say at the moment.
I'm at a loss for words. I don't know what to say. I can't imagine the heart break. For any of the families. I have goosebumps and tears just thinking about it...
Unimaginable.
Moses is cuter than ever if that is possible! Great pictures
Carolyn
I often feel the same way... I just don't what to post about. Thanks for sharing though... I can't imagine the loss of a child. It makes me appreciate my son so much more when I hear these stories.
I also follow all the adoption blogs you mentioned, and I too, appreciate reading everyone's adoption journeys whether it's at a very difficult part of the journey or a very exciting part of the journey. We're all on this crazy roller coaster ride together.
He is so sweet Emily.
I completely understand what you mean about the fragility of life. I was away this past weekend on a "getaway" alone and on Saturday my husband and 2 boys were involved in a car accident. Airbags and all, it was quite frightening. Thankfully everyone is alright but going to see the car really cemented the gravity of the situation and the need to enjoy every moment and not take them for granted.
Thanks for a thoughtful post.
A
thanks for sharing em-i can't imagine what those families would be going through...so sad. it really does make you stop and think, and be thankful what you have-and again, reminds you to enjoy every minute of it! Eryn xo
oh yah, and moses is absolutely adorable!!! wow!! :) Ex
Wowza! A new blog post! And yes, Hannah thinks Mo Mo is handsome!
Em
When you become a parent a fear of your child dying before you becomes your worst nightmare, but I don't think until you become a parent do you even understand this completely. I wonder how parents survive and move on, I don't know if I would have it in me. They truly become the strongest people in the world in my eyes. My condolences to your friends.
And your Moses is a beautiful young man with a wonderful family.
Cousin Erin
Heavy post Emily. I can hardly even allow myself to think about losing a child.
On a lighter note, I love the shot of moses on the floor in the airport - too cute.
I understand the lack of posts. I seem to go in waves too.
Love all these pictures. I miss you, Emily!! How are things?!?
Love, Bonnie
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